In Truth

Getting on a bicycle is always a moment of truth. Either you will get to where you are going, or you willn't. You might be in shape or you might have no fitness at all. Will you be strong enough to climb that hill, or will you find the courage to get off the pedals and walk up the hills and save what tidbit of dignity you have left for a later date. The bike is the only thing that matters on your ride. Not what clothes you have on. (But let's be frank you will need those chamois) Not the compounds your bike is made of, but the compounds of your heart. You can't lie on a bike. Because it demands the truth of you

Not taking this laying down

I'm without a car. And I might miss this upcoming semester. I'm supposed to be grateful? I'm furious. No one who is supposed to help is. To hell with them, I'm not a priority so honestly neither are they at this point. One man army.

The worth of this man.

My worth will not be dictated by others. I am my own man, I am my mother's son, I am the man i'm supposed to be. Never will I think less of myself, or allow others to think less of me.

Tubbs goes HAM

Slept all day today. Well to be honest, I slept till 10 AM then lazed around all day. Then at midnight I threw on my PT gear and did some calesthetics for half an hour. Gotta loose this gut.

The Beard

I'm back, with something to say. I will not shave my beard until I reach my goal weight. The ONLY exception I will make is for the Stephanie and Michael Ramos wedding, if most likely I have not hit the goal weight.

In other news: I am thinking an most likely will make these purchases in the next two month: a quality road bike and a Subaru WRX to replace my dieing '92 Civic hatchback.

in utero

I have realized that what I've been doing up to this point is waiting. Actively waiting for my world to be different. Laying foundation to be someone else. That has to stop, I have to be who I want to be now. Will future me stand for the wallowing that I'm doing now? Future and Present must meet, but will I procrastinate that union till future me yields to the me of yesteryear? Will I procrastinate destiny in hopes of it finding me?

Out of Iron I Emerge

Resilience is a very grueling trait to have. It means you are wont to walk down paths sprinkled with potholes and thorns, still ploding on with a smile and a song.
Today is a new day for me, a dawning of a brighter day. A new era. I honestly don't know if this new epoch will be better than the last but it will begin humbly. I'm making no promises to you, I'm making no promises as to the end result, but I know that improvements will be made.
I will not be tired. I will not cry. I will be better. I will be best.

E(a)rnest